Well, apparently I was laid off yesterday, but no one bothered to inform me. Nice. I only found out when I tried to check my work email and my username/password was denied. Then John came over with news about some fellow employees who were *at* their desks when they came by with the pink slips. I called Peter and we dished about it for a while. Thank goodness he has another job lined up at Yahoo, now he just needs to get the OK to start.

So no more daycare for Julian. I have to go in and tell Madi today. She'll be sad. I get a few months severance pay, plus I have about four weeks of vacation accrued, and then it's unemployment after that. I'll use the money to buy groceries while I work on my PhotoJournal idea. Yahoo! dropped the ball on it after initially showing great interest. Well, screw Yahoo! My friend John Chang and I are going to see if we can pull it off on our own. At least we can build out the product enough to sell it to someone. I still think it's a fantastic idea. I already have the domain name...http://www.photo-journals.net. But don't click yet, it's not set up.

So today I'm just going to bring Julian into the office with me. He can crawl around while I pack up my boxes. If my cute baby helps add a little bit of guilt factor, that's fine. Not that I expect any guilt from these cold-blooded fools, but I might as well try. I'm also going to ask what will happen to all the customers who will be left in the lurch. I tend to think they might be a little inclined to sue, having spent a large amount of money on a good product that is now no longer supported by anyone.

It's heartbreaking. Just as we got a fantastic product out the door and started to turn things around, management just utterly failed. All the hours and days and nights of work put in tirelessly over the last two years by the engineers, the support people, ME...all for naught. It just feels horrible.

But I'm optimistic about my future. I'm smart and ambitious, and I'm excited about working on my own projects for a while. I'm just worried that with Julian out of daycare, I won't have time to get anything done. That boy had better be taking some long naps, that's all I have to say! ;-) No, but seriously, I just need to be more disciplined and not spend his naps emailing or surfing or cleaning house, and not watch movies with Dan at night when Julian is sleeping. There IS time available, but I just need to be careful how I use it, that's all.

Well, today is going to be a very busy day, so I had better get to it. More soon...