Oh wow. I got on the scale this morning and I now weigh 167 POUNDS! That's 27 pounds over my previous weight, which was already about 10 pounds over where I want to be. Dammit! And as we speak I am *craving* sweets. Desperately. What I wouldn't do for some chocolate right now!

I have been exercising fairly well, avoiding total sloth, but when it comes to desserts I seem to have zero self-control lately. I have been having frozen yogurt after lunch at work, piled with chocolate chips and crumbled Oreos. At night I have been eating pumpkin bread and kidding myself that it's fine because of all the vitamin A and fiber. I don't know how the whipped cream on top fits in...oh, calcium of course.

Well, no more of that, I have to make a stand. I don't want to feel like a huge walrus, I DON'T want stretch marks, and it's time to get this under control. Hot chocolate will have to take the place of all this other crap. I'll start making jello with fruit chunks.

My glowing pregnancy feeling has had a bucket of cold water thrown over it. I'm sure some of it is hormones as well. I've been feeling more cranky lately. This weight gain sucks. I have also had a persistent headache on the right side of my head for the past week...it feels like I have pinched a nerve in my neck or gotten something out of alignment and I can't seem to crack it back into place like I normally can.

I ate a huge dinner of sushi rolls at TGI Sushi with John and Dan the other night, and then we went out for Cold Stone ice cream afterwards (which was MY idea, of course). I got a small, but the girl behind the counter filled the little cup obscenely full, there was about a pint of ice cream in there by the time she handed it to me. And of course, I had to finish it all. Afterwards I felt like I was going to explode. And all the next day I felt the same way, like I was about to give birth to triplets. I could barely breathe. My digestion is so slow these days, by the time food comes out I don't remember what it was that I ate way back when.

I realized that I just can't stuff myself like that. SMALL meals are key. It's too uncomfortable. I can barely breathe or walk when I eat too much, it's ridiculous. So I'm going to limit myself to fruit after lunch (not frozen yogurt), and maybe 2-3 pieces of chocolate from the downstairs Yahoo! reception desk instead of a whole cookie. I'll try to focus on having a hot chocolate or something, instead of just chocolate chips. Vanilla yogurt. Something with redeeming nutritional value at least.

I have absolutely nothing to do here at work today. I think I'll go home soon. Swimming tonight. Oh, my head....Maybe I should go get a massage to try to loosen my neck up. There's something about the way that I'm sleeping that screws it up. Hmmm...